gone, and she’s left me
a soap bar like an angry note,
and in the bathroom
the extractor fan
has hair. melting
from humidity, I take it in my fingers
and feel the waxy surface,
like a bar of chocolate
in your pocket on a hot day.
I inhale, taste air like mineral
wine, smelling herbs
and flowers, raspberries
and the redness
of rendered fat. naked,
I turn to avoid the heat, and rub it
on my body, all around
the belly,
over the balls and up
and onto the shoulders. bubbles
rise and slide
like mushrooms on an august
hillside. the plug
is jammed
with dropped out bits
of people. this
is beauty in the morning – feeling hot water
and remembering chrysty
while I rinse
and do my pits,
then dry
with her towel too.
I pull on underpants,
select a shirt
and trousers.
I sniff my forearm.
hey there – look – it’s you.
DS Maolalai has been nominated nine times for Best of the Net and seven times for the Pushcart Prize. He has released two collections,Love is Breaking Plates in the Garden (Encircle Press, 2016) and Sad Havoc Among the Birds (Turas Press, 2019). His third collection, Noble Rot,is scheduled for release in April 2022.